Her tricks

I am a 38 year old female who fell into my controlling mothers tricks again .When I was young she would tell me I could not do anything right .She yelled and screamed and occasionally hit me when she was having a bad day .I was so scared that I didn’t learn to drive till I was 33 years old .She made me so nervous I would freeze and I was scared I would kill someone. I rushed to marry someone anyone just to get me away from her. I even moved to a different state but she fallowed.

When me and my ex separated .I was forced to move back in with my mother I had 2 children no job no license . She started her controlling again but this time it was worse ,for now she was disabled (multiple chemical sensitivity) and stayed on me constantly .she would yell at me in front of my children ,and tell them I didn’t love them because after 6 years with her I found a new man .Which my children asked to find them a new dad .

I lived with my mother for so long because she said I could never make it on my own. My children were in the same school for 6 years and had grandma as a babysitter while I was at work .Im gone now been out for 2 years don’t even speak to her .If I new someone who’s mother was controlling I would tell them .I know its hard to have courage when the person who has always been right about everything tells you your worthless, but Im here to tell you The only way she will ever be happy is if you leave her or tell her no ,because you are her crutch in life , if she lays off you can both stand on your own.